Sorry, but forgot to blog yesterday but there wasn't much to say anyway and if you don't have much to say you may as well say nothing! Wahey ! Another pearl of wisdom!

Anyway today was another day in another week, getting too depressed to listen to the radio as you only hear bad news. I must admit I can't stand music radio, well radio 1 or all these commercial stations with all the blabber instead of talking! Must say that I'm quite a big fan of radio 5live.

Not a bad day today but find it hard to motivate myself at the moment. Any ideas anybody! There are so many thing going round my head don't find a moment's peace. Sometimes you wonder why you do what you do.... I work in the service industry if you like but it never seems to be enough service for your customers. When you read the books reap what you sow, what goes around comes around and go the extra mile and so on.... I have done all these things and was hoping to get SOME breaks but not at the moment.

I am counting on that ONE BIG BREAK and it's only round the corner, surely it is. When you come to think of it that true happiness won't be found in a big bank account although it does help but in your LIFE. Now what is life? Is it work, is it rest, is it the community you're in? Life to my thinking is all these things and it's personal. For myself I can't imagine working 9 to 5 and then switching off. And although I gripe and groan I do like my life.. I have build it myself, made my bed and am lying in it.

My real bonus this year is that I have relocated God in my life and although I don't wanna go on about it He's made me happier already, Nothing to do with monetary gain( I wish...)but much more to do with rest in my soul, can't explain it but I have found rest in my restless life and am starting to make decisions what I think is right not what the business requires. I have decided to take a few days of at the next bank holiday. You may say so what, but I haven't allowed myself or my nearest and dearest more than 1 week holiday when the business is quiet anyway.

I feel at ease with myself, my family and with all the difficult decisions I am going to have to make. Now THAT'S what I call a bonus...

Go well, all of you out there!

Baan